August 08, 2021
I have been meaning to publish new music for some time now. Well over a month ago I bought the Elektron Model: Cycles, an FM based groovebox. I’ve been having a lot of fun with it, but unfortunately never really got around to finishing up a track with it.
In fact, it’s been difficult to finish up stuff in general lately. Work has been exhausting, and while I took a little one week break, that hardly made up for it. Still, I don’t want to complain too much about it. Because I am truly happy with my position and the freedom that goes with it.
The last few weeks other more personal situations have compounded my lack of energy. It’s difficult to be frustrated about it; life happens to us all. In those moments you try to get by and make the most of the situation. Often you’re just happy to put a smile on the faces of the people around you.
However, when the worst has passed, you often find yourself a bit lost. Or at least, that’s how I felt. If you’re a bit like me, you have all these ideas and plans you want to work on. They keep you going, they have you putting in the work. But when you have to put all that stuff aside to tend to more urgent matters, it’s a bit overwhelming to find your way back into it.
Sometimes that could be a sign of yourself having put too much on your plate. Or maybe you realise you were working on some things that weren’t all that anyway. But other times it’s just painful. You worked yourself up to level 8 only for someone to pull the plug from your console. And then you’re like: I was so close to finishing the game. There’s no way I’m doing all that again.
I’m there right now. Trying to muster up the strength to go again. But also still a little shook. Someone could pull that plug again. Still, I’m sure I will make another attempt. And all that experience from having done it already does count for something.
So with positive energy I’m putting it out there that soon I’m able to share the music I’ve been making. And hopefully that’s the start of many more projects I’ve been entertaining in my head. But if it doesn’t go that way, and someone does pull the plug again; we will just deal with it. Life is life :)